*+ Just simple story +*

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

My words for you...

once it snow....
i'll always think about you...
the way you smile...
how you spend times with me...
how much you care for me...
you said you'll always be there for me...
never let me myself down...
you promise not to leave my side
for eternity.... for ever...
i thought... you would keep ur promise...
but still...
you lied....
you now gone...
away from me...
never ever come back...
it might be an end for our love...
but it's now the start of my pain...
our dreams broken...
our kiss stays no more...
our memory been stolen...
our life is ruined...
our every single thing,
started to fall into the spacious...
my heart is broken to pieces...
it may need some time...
to heal the wound of my heart...
the cold wind chill me...
and now my heart's deeply frozen...
that no one would ever warm my lonely soul...
i hated you...
i loved you...
i blame you for leaving me...
i cried for your leaving...
my eyes always shaded with tears...
i cannot stop the tears from falling down...
" For my beloved one..."
" From someone u loved..."

Monday, November 24, 2008

I only want to know what true sadness is...

nothing will happen if i just sit here and cry
it never even crossed my mind that i would fall in-love with you,
you where always there behind me
but i never looked that way......

the worse feeling is not death,
it is knowing that you aren't needed,
that you are alone in this world,
and that you no longer have the reason to live.....

Too much time has passed by to
lament that we were deeply in love
The wind keeps blowing, while my heart
cannot heal all the tears in it
Watching tomorrow with one eye
while keeping the other on yesterday
If only I could peacefully sleeping the cradle of your love

Someone, cry for me with parched eyes
I only want to know what true sadness is
Sitting in muddy water
isn't such a bad life
if it ends after the first time
Despair filled with hope and this chance with a trap set

What's right or wrong?
It's like two sides of a coin
How long must I live till I'm healed
I only want to know true happiness is
All that glitters is not gold
I only want to know what true sadness is
Sitting in muddy water
isn't such a bad lifeif it ends after the first time…

Sunday, November 23, 2008

The wind blows as the palm tree's leafs falls

Is been soo many years from now...
Ever since i left this place...
A place i called home...
Full of my childhood memories...
and also.... the memory with my first love, Sarah.

After i moved to the city,I never thought...
of coming back to this village for the rest of my life...
or laying down to think back all those memory...
Since then, i studied very hard to score flying colours.
and finally now, i get to aboard to US next month.
At the same time, i receive a letter...
Is about Sarah... She Died...

i never knew she was a cancer person...
she never told me...
i was informed to attend her funeral ceremony...
1st i thought not to go back to that place anymore, but still...
i went there... the next day of the morning.

half of the villagers gathered there...to pay their respect..
i saw many of my high school friends...
they don't recognize me after soo many years.
except for one person, Sarah's mother, aunt Samantha...

She know is me when our eyes met...
i know her as well... even though she grew much older..
aunt Samantha hugged me and thanked me...
for coming all the way to attend to her daughter funeral...
i can see her eyes shaded with tears...

After the ceremony ended, she gave me a letter...
" is from Sarah. " she said before she left.
I opened it and started to read it...

" Hey Sam , is been a while since you left... Pls follow the instruction below...
to find the secret Treasure..."

Treasure Hunt huh...
And so, i started the small journey to find the so-called "secret Treasure".

the 1st stop, is the front gate of XX junior high school.
That's the school we spent together before...
we were classmate since kinder garden...
she was my best and only close friend...
we used to spent our recess time together, playing games , sharing each other secrets...

2nd stop, the Time's Cinema.
Oh! the building is gone! only left is a piece of land...
Sarah and I spent most of our free time at there...
the last movie we watched is a very nice love movie...
we ended up walk back home, holding hand together...
i was shy back there, i don't know how to respond...

next stop, below the palm tree.
Sarah, this palm tree brings back memories...
there is a night , you suddenly crying alone in front your house...
i was there for you, asking why you cry, and You didn't said a word...
you graped my hand, and started to run...
together, we pass by our school, the Time's cinema, and finally...
we stopped under this palm tree...
i was curious for the reason, then so sudden... you hugged me...
and you said : " You only can cry for me, only for me! "
I don't really understand why she said that... still, i promised.
and we spent there together all night, waiting for the sun rise...

I was in love with you , and realise how much important you are...
i wanted to protect u, love u, ad spent the rest of our life together...
I wish to be with u, Sarah. From the bottom of my heart, i really do.
i decided to confess my love to you, but then i was too shy...
i ended up wrote a simple note "I love u Sarah " , put inside a small box.
and kept it beside the palm tree... then i asked u to search the box.

the next morning i expected to get the reply from you.
just as i found you under the palm tree, you... were kissing another guy called John.
He is the one that chased u since junior high and the hottest guy in every girls mind.
in the very second, my heart break into pieces...
i run away, crying... my heart raced ad i tell myself " i only cry for you, Sarah... "

After that, we hardly spent time together...
she tried to talk to me but i avoid to listen... for my heart still in pain...
then, my father asked for us to leave the village and stay in the city...
my family members agreed, so am i... nodded my head without complain...

I didn't tell Sarah about it even until the day i left this village...
i didn't inform her at all...
when we were leaving, i saw Sarah... chasing behind our car...
i can tell that she was scolding me through her lips moving...
scold me " You stupid! ".
As the car keep moving forward, Sarah view became smaller and smaller,
finally...no more.
i don't even had a chance to say goodbye...

Without realising it, i stop at a shop...
the shop named " Sarah love Panda "...
' Panda ' ? that's my nickname!
When i realise that, aunt Samantha come out from that shop.
She said this shop's owner is Sarah , she had it before she died...

" Finally you had come to the end of the journey, now you should know where to find... our secret Treasure! "

And so... I run... hurried to my final destination...
Under the palm tree....
There... i found two boxes at the same spot i put mine...
i open both of them...

one is mine .... " I love u Sarah "

another is... Sarah's ... " you stupid guy! I love u too... "

I started crying.... crying all my feelings that kept deep in my heart for soo many years...
At the same time, the wind blows, as the palm tree's leafs falls...